I'm ill - I need a dose of freedom.
You know, I am really sick today. I am sick of everything. I am sick of Israel, I am sick of the USA, I am sick of Iraq. I am sick of Palestine. I am sick of you versus me. I am sick of what happened in the past and its effects on me. I am sick that Israeli Citizen Security is More Important Than My Freedom. I am just sick sick sick.
I am sick that I can't leave my city to go to Ramallah for a beer with my friends without being hassled. I am sick that its hot and I can't go swimming in the Med, a distance of maybe 1 hour from Nablus. I am sick of being degrated and treated like a criminal at checkpoints which surround my whole city. I am sick of feeling like a leashed animal. I am just sick sick sick.
I am sick of being afraid. I am sick of hearing my future sister in law talking about being afraid to arrive at the Tel Aviv airport. I am sick that she will get hassled, I am sick that she may not be allowed in for the wedding. I am sick of being second class. I am just sick sick sick.
I am sick of being afraid of Israeli's. I am sick of being nervous all the time. I am sick about thinking of my future. I am sick that I feel so helpless and hopeless. I am sick and tired of this wedding, I just want it to be over. I am sick of my fear of flying. I am sick sick sick.
I am sick of talking about how sick I am.
I think there needs to be an NGO to come into Nablus and give free mental and emotional therapy to people who have to live under occupation. Especially, when you are STUCK and you see these settlers have all the freedom of moving and you just wish you could drive your car more than 15 miles.
I NEED A VACATION!